[31 Jan 2006|06:21am] please put some normality in my life. things are changing and sometimes i don't even want to get out of bed. i can't get my hours switched back around so things are gonna suck real bad for work. the past few days have been really difficult, i've been able to mend things with old friends, make new friends, talk to good people about my current state of life. honestly, i've never been so confused at any point in my life than i have been the past month..but i just try to smile and i know that it will all blow over eventually and then maybe one day my heart will be whole again and my head won't hurt all the time and i will have something to sink my feet into. being so unsure of myself and everyone around me sure is a pain in the ass, that's not what i want. sometimes i just feel like mark and i are inside of a globe and everything is perfect and then somebody shakes it up and i can't even see his face..sometimes i feel like i really have no idea who he is. i guess that's being in love, i don't really know. i just want to be beautiful to him and be everything he wants. why is that so hard? i'm not gonna get all emo, i'm listening to the counting crows and they make me happy. i guess i don't really have anything to say. 1 comment|post comment

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